I'm so tired. Mentally and physically. I'm tired of everything, of everyone. I just want to sleep (not die, just sleep) and stay in the worlds of my dreams. Life is just more exuberant and enjoyable there than here in reality. I just hate the majority of the people I meet everyday. In my dreams I can be anything, anyone, anywhere. I can do anything I want, without restriction if I wanted. Unlike here where I feel so bound to the little things that get taken out of proportion by others, I try to make everyone happy and in doing so I make myself unhappy because I feel like I can't enjoy the things in life as much all the time. I just want to be able to see my friends like I used to, I just want to do the things that I want to do without always feeling like someone is going to chastise me over every little thing. I'm just so fucking tired.

I went to a party two days ago and got drunker than everyone else. =.= I had a hangover all day yesterday, and I'm still nauseous today. this fuckin' sucks. fdhbgsldfhbhjsbgl. I will never do shots of every kind of alcohol in the house ever again. EVER. I also need to cut back on how much I drink at parties. But on a slightly happier note, I'm looking into moving into an apartment or house or something with some friends of mine. Hopefully I can find someone who's still willing to move out with me, as I can't do it alone.

So me and my friends here at college are talking about what three weapons we would use in the zombie apocalypse, and the majority of them are picking unrealistic and impractical weaponry. I picked a metal baseball bat, a fire axe, and a pistol. They're easy to find, easy for me to use, and practical. What would you guys pick?

Why are papers so hard to write? DX and why do I have the inability to work on them early enough that it shouldn't be a problem? da fuq man. Q A Q

Sweet baby jesus, this past week has been crazy at work. I was in floral all week, and for the entire day of Valentines. Which was fun until the traffic made me late getting back. =.= Today was my first day back on the front end and guess what, I began feeling nauseous and ready to faint halfway through my shift. I'm home now (obviously, lol) and I still feel nauseous, but not fainting. Yay? =/ Anyway one of my friends from school introduced me to these desktop buddy things called "shimejis", and they are SO FREAKING ADORABLE.
/)(>3<)(\ I love them and they constantly overtake my desktop. OTL

((the facebook page is my friend who showed me shimeji btw))

So I went out to lunch with my mom to Sam Diego's today, which was nice. We then went to my doctor's appointment where I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. =/ I'm picking up my medication for that tomorrow before I go to work. The doctor told me that for the first few days I'll feel nauseous, but it'll take about 5 or so weeks along with regular excersize to feel the medicine take effect. I'm also getting therapy, but I don't know where yet. Meh, not really looking forward to all of this, but I want to get better and not feel like a worthless piece of shit all the time. ANYWAY, the rest of my day has been alright. When I get home I'm going to build a pillow/blankie fort and get all snuggly and shit. :D It should be fun~.

So today I got called into work two hours early, and they told me I could leave early. Then they told me that I might get out early. I ended up being there for 7 1/2 hours. =.= Stop n' Shop managers need to stop being so indecisive. GAWD. Hopefully I'll have a new job soon though. But in the meantime I shall entertain myself with anime and shiiiiiiiiiit. :D On another note this has recently become one of my favorite songs! :3

So um, hi. My name is Brandi (if you didn't look at the "About Me" section already), and this is my brand new blog. I'm going to try to post on here everyday, mostly about silly trite things, videogames, drawing, TV shows, life in general. So I hope you all (whoever you may be) will enjoy it?