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There are times (like right now) where I'm bored out of my mind, and I start considering ideas. For instance creating some kind of RP account on tumblr, but the problem is what character/fandom should I appeal to? Should I do an OC? Will anyone actually want to roleplay with me? Then there are the instances where I wish some of my followers would just talk to me. bluh.

It's been awhile

Well, I guess I'm gonna start this thing back up. A lot has happened since I last posted on here. I think I was still going to classes then? Anyway, lots of things happened. I'm gonna shorten things down a bit for sanity's sake.

I was forced to stop taking classes at the college (for really dumb reasons bluh). I was also forced to work two jobs, which was stupid in it's own right but I saved money much faster so I guess it was worth something at least. After that I got kicked out of the house (then I was told the one who kicked me out was "surprised she/I moved out so fast" what a load of shit), and had to beg my boyfriend and his friends to take me in. So that's pretty much where I'm at now, some stupid shit happened over thanksgiving too but I really don't want to bring it up right now (literally the worst thanksgiving ever).

But yeah. I'm still working, paying rent every month like a normal functioning person instead of living with my mom forever. Which is probably good, since I probably never would've gotten my shit in motion by myself. But I miss it sometimes. Being on cape, knowing that my friends were just a stone's throw away from me and I could see them anytime I wanted (albeit the gregarious amount of time I spent working UGH). Now the majority of people I've come to know and love are so far away. While having my freedom up here is fucking amazing, I still miss everyone. I miss hanging out with people at school and work. Bluh.

But anyway, I guess I also have good news? ish? W/e anyway, I've recently joined more fandoms than I was previously a part of (so many, like not even I know). For example I've been reading Homestuck recently, which may seem strange to many because at first I was totally against reading it. I'd heard nothing but bad news about it and it just didn't seem to be worth the effort people were claiming it took. Then I joined tumblr and a bunch of the people I follow/follow me are actually really into it. I ignored it for the longest time because I had gotten over it. Every now and again I'd like one of their posts because I thought it was funny, and eventually I began to try to read it. Just for shits n' giggles really. But now I'm in Act 6 Intermission 2 (I had to think about it for a second lol), and I like it. I like to think that I'm one of the more mellow fans of things where they don't try to shove it down your throat or force you into understanding it if you don't want to. I think the story is interesting and I'd like to recommend it to others, but then I remember what I used to see from Homestuck fans when it first started. Jamming it down others throats (I know not everyone is like that), and I get concerned that I'll come across like that.

Anyway, sorry about the long ranty post, but I just wanted to get things off my chest. Hopefully I'll be able to keep this more updated than I used to. Until next time~!

~ BP

I'm so tired. Mentally and physically. I'm tired of everything, of everyone. I just want to sleep (not die, just sleep) and stay in the worlds of my dreams. Life is just more exuberant and enjoyable there than here in reality. I just hate the majority of the people I meet everyday. In my dreams I can be anything, anyone, anywhere. I can do anything I want, without restriction if I wanted. Unlike here where I feel so bound to the little things that get taken out of proportion by others, I try to make everyone happy and in doing so I make myself unhappy because I feel like I can't enjoy the things in life as much all the time. I just want to be able to see my friends like I used to, I just want to do the things that I want to do without always feeling like someone is going to chastise me over every little thing. I'm just so fucking tired.

I went to a party two days ago and got drunker than everyone else. =.= I had a hangover all day yesterday, and I'm still nauseous today. this fuckin' sucks. fdhbgsldfhbhjsbgl. I will never do shots of every kind of alcohol in the house ever again. EVER. I also need to cut back on how much I drink at parties. But on a slightly happier note, I'm looking into moving into an apartment or house or something with some friends of mine. Hopefully I can find someone who's still willing to move out with me, as I can't do it alone.

So me and my friends here at college are talking about what three weapons we would use in the zombie apocalypse, and the majority of them are picking unrealistic and impractical weaponry. I picked a metal baseball bat, a fire axe, and a pistol. They're easy to find, easy for me to use, and practical. What would you guys pick?

Why are papers so hard to write? DX and why do I have the inability to work on them early enough that it shouldn't be a problem? da fuq man. Q A Q

Sweet baby jesus, this past week has been crazy at work. I was in floral all week, and for the entire day of Valentines. Which was fun until the traffic made me late getting back. =.= Today was my first day back on the front end and guess what, I began feeling nauseous and ready to faint halfway through my shift. I'm home now (obviously, lol) and I still feel nauseous, but not fainting. Yay? =/ Anyway one of my friends from school introduced me to these desktop buddy things called "shimejis", and they are SO FREAKING ADORABLE.
/)(>3<)(\ I love them and they constantly overtake my desktop. OTL

((the facebook page is my friend who showed me shimeji btw))